At last, I rode my new bike...

October 31, 2009. Finally relaxed my nerves of excitement to ride my bike.

Well, to inform everyone, I have cleared the clouds of confusion of which bike to take by eventually buying a Hero Honda Hunk - a strong muscular black coloured beast.

Now I am not writing this post to elaborate on how my bike looks, or how good it is. But if I say that I got the bike on 21st October, but did not ride it for 10 full days, you would surely look at me with surprise. But that is the truth.

Actually my Mumbai trip from 22nd, and thereafter me going down with cold and cough made me reach this long waiting period. My hands were itching to get hold of the grip, and go zooming out for a long long ride. And when it ws Saturday approaching, I knew that finally the wait was about to be over.

It was bliss. The feel and ownership of a new bike is surely amazing. It might be short-lived, but at least in the initial few months, I am going to relish and cherish it like a treasure. (For 10 days, it was covered with a bedsheet and tied with a rope to prevent dust from settling on it.)

And to my relief, Sumit also approved, after his ways of testing, that the bike is nice. :)

Solution to a lot of problems in Life – “NO EXPECTATIONS”...

After a lot of thought and reflecting back on where things go wrong, I have found a substantive answer that addresses some problems in life. This does not correspond to only me, or any one section of the society, but I believe the mass can relate to it.

We frequently face conflict in our lives because we can't deliver to someone's expectations or we expect too much from others. When they fail expectations, we get angry, upset and forget all the good in them because of one failed expectation. For example, angry customers would create a scene if the products or services they bought did not fulfil their expectations. But I am talking of a much broader spectrum of expectations. I see that every day in my personal life, in the lives of my close ones, as well the public. Some hold on to that as a grudge and constantly bring conflict. It doesn't serve well in the long run. I specifically want to focus on the expectations in a relationship, primarily friendship.

It is high time as one gets over with that golden period of any relation wherein everything is ideal and works well, he should realize that friendship is not everything in life. As soon as one realizes it, better for him/her. What if one gets to know that friendship which meant the world for him is only superficial relationship? Some friends just care enough to be there in your good times and one incorrect step they are not there.

I feel like putting my hypothesis as “REFRAIN FROM EXPECTING TOO MUCH OUT OF A RELATIONSHIP UNLESS YOU TOO SURE OF THE RELEVANCE IT HOLDS FOR THE OTHER” because when your friendship becomes your world, and all of a sudden things come to a standstill, you start getting the feel of a lost creature and the whole motive of the friendship has gone astray. The belief takes over us that all the stories of true friendship are just too ideal, but in this world no one really cares. It hurts and makes one sink to the deepest furrow of grieves. This commandment is the best way to survive in this contemptible world where everyone lives for himself first and then thinks otherwise.

I received a text message which is also very true and apt in such scenarios. Never tell your problems to anyone except who genuinely cares for you. Most people would be happy that you are in trouble, and the rest don’t care about your sorrows. With thrashed expectations you can never revive your friendship again how hard you may try. At least when not expecting much from the relationship, everything is casual, and life moves on.

Relentless Thoughts

I think that facts are stubborn things. I believe in that. My life has had a number of insistent moments, which at times leave haunting memories and trails of thoughts behind ,affecting my perception and my attitude towards life and relationships. Despite of what I am writing here, I'm still open minded enough to know that circumstances surrounding facts can and do change. As have mine.

Days have gone, time has passed,
They say time heals, but to me, time kills and rots;
I may not be a great writer or a vivid poet,
But I can portray and scribble the words of my thoughts.

Each passing day, I settle in dismay,
Sitting by the window, all I see is my past;
Perplexed and baffled with the varied harsh experiences,
I wonder when it would be my lingering last.

Relentless thoughts plague me every day,
making me realise how much scathe I might have caused;
Hiding behind a mask of whimsy whims and pretensions,
I feel that the happiness in my life has paused.

I've been hurt in incomprehensible ways,
Hurts that last to this very day;
Tranquillity seems like a distant reality,
With my serenity beset, I guess it will always end this way.

Amidst the picturesque image of the illusions I had,
These thoughts of mine seem stricken;
I’ve realised that life's a bitch with no alluring presence,
Thus from now on there's nothing much on life to be written.

Is this what we want our life to be???

Recently I got a mail from my friend, which had this small description of how life is today. The way our lives have been reduced to being merely work machines, I found it apt and worth mentioning here.

Life is...

“Leaving the house in the morning, dressed in clothes that you bought on credit card for work, driving through the traffic in a car that you are still paying for, putting in fuel that you cannot afford, in order to get to the job that you hate but need so badly so that you can pay for the clothes, car, fuel and the house that you leave empty the whole day, in order to live in it.”

What should I blog???

Initially when I started writing, my contemplations were all about what to write on the blog, how discretely would I write, what shall be the title and the theme; and finally I decided that all these things don’t matter. All that matters is to start blogging and the topics and themes shall follow. And so I bring forward random thoughts and expressions of my life, trying to put them into words in the best possible way.

Today I have been deliberating that it is my blog and so obviously my turn to blog and it has been my turn to blog since Tuesday. But what to blog? I thought of several ideas to blog and here I am...blank. I guess I’ve been sort of blank in my writing these days, also. Not that I don’t have ideas, I always have ideas. All I have to do is go out on the road or think of my life and people around me or watch television, and I get ideas for my own. It is also a great way to get inspired. But lately I’ve been doing summery things. I think maybe there is a time for everything. I know I will write another post soon. I know the time will come. I will see others reading my blog and either smiling, or reflecting back those things upon themselves. But I just want to ensure that I am discrete enough not to make my personal life too open for others to bog me down. Probably I need to write my personal diary.

Frozen Tears...

This predicament is not for a while,

But often in life, I have to give a fake smile...

Smile, although my heart feels like breaking.

Smile, although I am hurt inside.

Smile, although I feel like crying my lungs out.

Smile, with a lump in my throat that even loved ones don't notice.

I prevent my eyes reflecting my grief, to fight bravely all the fears,

I wish that all my tears turn into Frozen ice, into Frozen tears!!

"Hardest moment is not when you lose something and tears come out of your eyes, but its when you lose something and left broken, but you still manage to smile."

Movie Review - All The Best...

At last, a breather amidst a gamot of bogus movies. All the best is undoubtedly the most entertaining film amongst the 2009 Diwali releases.

Tucked away beneath some pointless songs and overblown action scenes, this is a silly yet surprisingly enjoyable tale of misunderstandings and mistaken identities. The story involves two buddies (Fardeen Khan and Ajay Devgan) who owe an awful lot of money to a local don, but have no means to raise it. Fardeen lies to his elder brother Sanjay Dutt about him being married so as to get more pocket money. Renting out the bungalow to get money was the only option, but Sanjay Dutt suddenly shows up unannounced at the wrong time, leaving Fardeen and Ajay trapped in a mess. Mughda Ghodse and Bipasha Basu, do not strike out as much, but add a lot to the story of mistaken identities. The setup includes a bunch of madcap characters including a mute gangster who communicates by rattling a spoon inside a glass, a Malayali housemaid with a deep voice, a crackpot tenant who can't wait to move into his new house, and a tempo-driver who wants to unload the furniture in his vehicle so he can attend to his pregnant wife.

The maker has got it spot on in keeping the audience laughing with a clean movie, without resorting to below the belt humour and vulgar interludes. Ajay Devgan’s looks are a little cynical, but he showcases his improved comic timing and towers above the rest. Sanjay Dutt adds in with a top form and entertains. Johnny Level and Sanjay Mishra have made the proceedings funnier, with witty one-liners and hilarious sequences keeping the audience trapped.

There is nothing new in this movie when it comes to novelty, but the background score and the performances truly tune well with the storyline. The choreography and cinematography is elegant and pleasant. Thought not very different, it sure is effective.

Like every other bollywood movie, ‘All The Best’ also left some loopholes, but when you watching an ensemble piece like this, such blunders can be overlooked. And reviewing the other movies that have released at the same time, I sure know that this movie is going a long way. All the Best!

Movie Review - Blue...

Third movie in a week, but the consequence was no better than what I had with the other two. Blue has been washed up and deserves to go down deep, failing the expectations it had built with the promos and the cast.

This movie has been claimed by media reports, to be the most expensive Hindi film ever made, with a very strong host of stars including Akshay Kumar, Lara Dutta, Katrina Kaif, Sanjay Dutt, a guest appearance by pop star Kylie Minogue; and also the crew members like composer AR Rahman.

But what is the end result of all this money and talent? An incredibly daft underwater thriller.

The plot essentially involves a coveted treasure, but the way it has been put into the story is lethargic. Akshay Kumar is rich, but obsessed with finding the treasure lying in a sunken ship called Lady in Blue. Sanjay Dutt, who is considered the only person in the world to unearth the treasure, is reluctant to even talk about the ship or the treasure. So Akshay puts up a plan around Zyed Khan (Sanjay Dutt’s brother) to get Sanjay in for finding the treasure. Lara Dutta is into the movie probably as an Eye-tonic, and there was no need to Katrina at all.

In the absence of a sane screenplay, we are subjected to some burnout action sequences and bike chases (those who have seen Torque, would notice the extremely close resemblance of the scenes). For most part of the movie, nobody goes near the ship, but when they eventually do, they find the treasure with such ease, that you wonder why nobody else did it before them.

The dialogues are juvenile and with a low IQ. The casualness in the conversations fails to induce depth to the cinema. And the so-called suspense about Akshay Kumar’s gray shade in the role can be easily anticipated and judged in the beginning itself.

For those who still want to watch the movie, should stay tune for – an astonishing cinematography at the beautiful location of Bahamas; the serene beaches and authentic aquatic life; dazzling and sexy Lara Dutta in the first half of the movie, and some nice songs to keep you awake. And of course, the bike lovers would love the Ducati.